Oof. Hello everyone!
Do you guys still remember me? I hope you do! Hahaha <3
I haven't uploaded much here because, truth to be told, my life has become quite a mess in these days. I have struggled with work, my personal relationships and my health both mentally and physically - but I'm okay now!
This is going to be along text, I suppose. Perhaps, view this as a combination of a very big rant and also life updates, so you can know me better while I update this.
Warning: LONGGGGGGGG TEXT BELOW.Funny unrelated note: Today is raining as well!!! It seems everytime I update my website, it's always raining. There is something very soothing about rain for me. It's kinda like... unpacking emotions. Even nature has to cry sometimes, and I know that is just myself projecting my thoughts on the concept of rain... but there's just... something very soothing about it. When I was little, I used to despise rain. I always liked sunny days, because you could play outside with your friends and family — but lately, I.. kinda made peace with it? My long despise of rain, that is. Now, rain is soothing for me. To stay inside and think while listening to the sound of rain outside. To know that, eventually, the sun will come out again and the water that poured will help plants to grow and, luckly, yourself too. You will be fine after a rainy day. A rainy week. A rainy year. The sun is always there, even if you don't see it. That is the kind of thinking that made me go on in life. I got an idea of changing the layout of this website to combine both my OC from Webfishing and a rain effect css (Later, perhaps new year? I dont know hehehe)
Oh wow! Finally what I was supposed to talk about. (LOL) Remember when I talked before how I went to see Nagabe-sensei on Brazil? Sadly, I wasn't able to meet him in person. :c
I was very sad for not being able to get his autograph and also cried A LOT because of it. I even made my boyfriend feel worried about it, but it happens. There was a lot of people and not enough numbers on the meet-up. But looking back now, after I'm not so emotional about it, I'm very happy that I went there anyway. I got posters and also thematic cups!!! The staff gave it away for free and they were very kind about it.
Speaking of Arcane (Netflix Show), the last episode came out on September 23. It is a very significant date for me, do you know why? Because it's my relationship anniversary! 2 years of dating my lovely boyfriend!!! WOHOO!
Needless to say, that day was a RIDE. We cried A LOT due to the awesome end of the show. We also had an incredible date where we got some yummy food, beverages and saw some Pokemon Cards. Things about me: I love taking photos of food. It's just a silly thing, but I like it very much, more than taking photos of myself - at least.
FOOD, FOOD! I LOVE FOOD. AND YES. YOU CAN EAT THE DUCK. I ATE IT. IT WAS YUMMY.
Last, but not least, I visited my cousin after a long time! It was amazing, we talked a lot <3 Here's an amazing view of MASP.
The breeze from this height was awesome. Also, I really wanted to visit the park that is close to it. I hope I can go next time!
Oh boy, WHAT ANOTHER RIDE.
I'm not going to lie, the start of December was SHIT. I had a very sad announcement. I'm not going to work with a client I've worked for 2.5 years anymore and I'm not sure how my work is going to look out in January. I'm afraid but also excited for what it is to come — I have scheaduled my vacations (just the date, I didn't planned anything) for January (which is my birthday! January 6th! Capricorn girrlll!) and I plan to still take this time to unwind, to BREATHE. Because oh boy, I need the air. I need the mental space, you know? But when I got the notice, I was VERY SAD. I had been sad for around two weeks; again, it made my very cute and beautiful boyfriend worried too (sorry love). A thing about me is that I have anxiety. I take meds for it AND FUNNILY STARTED BEFORE THE NOTICE. Imagine if I didn't started taking them before the warning! After talking with my boss, apparently, the beggining of December was a strange ride for anyone. Was it a strange time for you too?
How I recovered? I went out with my two friends. GIRRRRLYSS DATE TIME!
It was my first time going out with my girl friends — girls only. It was VERY FUN! I want to do it again. Not that I don't love my male friends. I love ALL MY FRIENDS VERY MUCH! But having female friends close to me was a personal struggle I had for quite a while — I desired it from the bottom of my heart. For a long time, I didn't had it so, being able to have this moment, was something that took out the rainy clouds out of my heart and my mind. I'm a mostly a very home-bound person. It made me realise I need to go out more than I normally do. With friends. With my boyfriend. It's more clear now than ever that this is a necessity, rather then a fleeting desire.
Moving on, I had a great time with my boyfriend and our family on xmas. I made lasagna and pudding for the feast <3 (I promise it wasn't a lasagna flavored pudding.) I'm also excited for new year's eve. I want do drink some apple cider and we are going to do a barbecue! I'm also thinking of making some empadão (it's a kind of brazilian chicken pie).
If you read this so far, thank you for taking your time to reading me yap about a ton of things! Really appreciate it. See you soon, and stay safe!