I'M SO PUMPED!—The only true plans I have for it is having a cake with my boyfriend and going to the cinema.

I love my birthdays. And it's quite funny to some people, because I'm 28 years old and I'm considered 'the mom' of 2/3 of my friend groups.

A lot of people is afraid of growing up, and me as well sometimes—but I also find growning up to be beautiful. Some people find it hard when it's the day of their birthday, or they simple don't mind it. To me, this day is not about me aging, even if that is inevitable, but a reminder that I'm not alone. To be grateful that I have people around me that loves me. I really shouldn't take it take it for granted. That our friends, as well as our presence have meaning, impact, even if what we really can control out in life is minimal.

Yesterday, I saw a tiktok video that made me think. As a friend, a lover and a person in my family, I strive to be a safety net for the people that I care about—I hope they trully are able to find confort in my presence. That's a thing I've done unconsciously and, in more recent years, consciously as I noticed I take pleasure in it via therapy, otherwise, I wouldn't be doing that.

The important part, actually, is that I should do that, mostly, to myself.

Currently, I'm on a somewhat turbulent and anxious period of my life. Not as turbulent as I've already experienced (I've been unemployed, mentally ill, emotionally and financially dependant of a significant other before) so I'm sure the current time is better than previous experiences and I will handle it. But the last months were also the period I started taking medication for anxiety needless to say, I'm still adapting to it.

If you're also in the same journey as taking your medication (did you took your pills today?), have faith! It will get better, it will get better! I promise!

Normally, I would be anxious about work—it's my main source of anxiety and it almost funny how even my sign and blood type relates to this (hello, A+ capricorn woman lol). But I'm fine now. I've done some quick introspection, that I need to delve into further, how my anxiety lessened when I realized that I could be the safety net to myself. That I should be the safe place for myself, first and foremost. That is important to be judgemental of your life and where you are going, yes, but not to beat yourself when you don't know or when you don't have clear plans.

That plans are just that... plans. Changeable, imprevisible—like life itself. And if they don't work, it's okay. You make new, better plans.

To be honest, I didn't expected this post to be so big. I wanted to talk about how I started watching The Rookie in 2024 (I LOVE CHENFORD) and I'm still watching it, about the new games I'm playing, but I will post this on another entry.

It can be a little silly to read the thing below but please, don't mind the little self boost here, my inner child needs it, okay?

Happy Birthday, me!

I'm so proud of the woman you became and you're doing great!

We will always be fine! Things may not be perfect, we will fail and also learn a lot, but try your best to enjoy the ride.

Relax, because I will always catch you. ALWAYS.

— Best wishes, Yourself.

Happy birthday to me! 01/06/2025 - 09:00